I have this overwhelming feeling today that something is wrong. Can't seem to shake it. I've taken a walk and had a delicious espresso beverage and gone to my favorite coffee shop to write. Wearing my favorite shirt and listening to my favorite singer....but something's not right. It doesn't feel sad, or stressed, or upset, or anything like that. It just feels....off. Can't seem to get the words on the page, can't focus. Can't do anything that i want to do.
Maybe that's just it though - it feels like today wasn't anything that i wanted it to be. But what was that? Relaxing? It was. A day i got to sleep in? Yep. A writing day? Well, i'm sitting here now and this is the most productive i've been in hours. Anybody else get these days? Days that feel like a waste? Perhaps it's part of the feeling that i constantly need to be productive or i'm wasting my time. Which is, y'know, bullshit.
I guess the best i can do is make use of the rest of the evening in the best way i can, and remember that tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow i get to start over.
Perhaps i'll get started on the obscene amount of pumpkin bread i need to make for Thursday. By which i mean enough for at least 150 people.
Oh yes. There will be bread.
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